remember the girl I talked about on 1-31-10? Well I talked to her. I saw a group she was with was giving car washes to raise money. I had a dirty car. So I go and was lucky enough to have her be one of the ones working on my car. Her personality was even better than I had imagined from our previous encounters. She is so happy, fun, and kind. Of all my attempts to talk to a girl I've had a crush on this one I think went the best. Chit chat about the car and then I introduce myself and we start talking. It was nice. It was a beautiful day and I was thoroughly enjoying talking to her. I was nervous at first but it wasn�t that bad and went away almost entirely as we got to talking. The thing is, I realize that it is extremely unlikely anything romantic will come out of this. She is eight years younger than me and also a little out of my league. Did I mention she is gorgeous� no joke. Of all the girls at this school (and there are quite a few attractive ones) she is the one I wanted to talk to. So, since my chances were so low, it was like there wasn�t really much pressure. But also, it was just so easy to talk to her. She was so welcoming and genuinely nice to me. I was also in a good frame of mind going into this. I don�t have time to go into the details but I worked through some pretty major things and decided the best way to deal with the world was not to be sad and grumpy about it, but to fight it with positive energy. So the world has a lot of sad things, all the more reason to go out there and try to make things better, and positive energy does that a lot better than negative. I also came to the consensus that trying to make my life good was futile so I was just left with going out and doing things, trying to help others or enjoy others. My focus became on doing and not acquiring. I talked with her because I wanted to talk to her in that moment and not for the sole purpose of trying to get a girlfriend.
So yea, I�m pretty old for her but I�m not going to let that stop things from happening if (in the extremely rare case) they do happen. I�ve done that too many times in the past for other reasons. And if nothing more really comes of it, I truly enjoyed meeting her. Her attitude / energy is amazing and has been helpful to be around.
11:34 p.m. - 2010-05-02
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