I never write anymore. In my personal journal or in here. All I write are songs now. And I�ve been enjoying that. My heart bleeds right onto the page lately. I don�t know what I would do if I didn�t have that as an outlet. I guess I�d write in here and my personal journal�
I think part of why I don�t write is because I feel ashamed or something. When I just had emo tendencies it was all fun and games but now I feel like my problems are too real and serious to write about in some online anonymous journal. I feel a bit like the person who shares too much and everyone else is just wishing they would save themselves the embarrassment and just be quiet.
Maybe I need to be a little more selective about what I choose to write about�?
I treated myself to a Colorado ski vacation recently. It was absolutely great. It was so needed. Sometimes a change of scenery and a break from the routine is just what you need to get yourself out of a rut. The mountains soothe me. Skiing soothes me. Some people ski like they are trying to conquer the mtn, but I prefer to ski like I�m making love to it. caressing it. I went with a big ski club and met a lot of people. Skied with some really good skiers. I also took one day to ski completely by myself. Just me and the mtn. it was therapeutic. My Dad loved to ski. He was by far my biggest ski buddy. We talked about taking another trip out west but never made it. So I felt like I had to do it. and that by me doing it, he was somehow doing it too.
10:12 p.m. - 2013-02-08
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