my first entry.... let me start by saying that i think that these online diaries are a great idea. i haven't really many yet, but just the whole idea is awesome. a way we can anonymously and honestly share our feelings and thoughts with whoever wants to see them. if it wasn't for the internet something like this probably wouldn't be possible. anyway, i'm going to start taking advantage of it.
I've kept a journal of my own for about a year now and i think it has greatly helped me. i feel like i really started struggling with stuff around the time i started my journal but the journal didn't make me worse, it just allowed me to see my problems. which at first makes things tough, or worse, but you have to see them and go through that before you can fix them. at least i think this is what's going on. i also earlier put a journal name on here, but then i told one of my friends what my name was and that ruined the whole anonymous part. its a shame that i don't want my friends to know everything i think. i tell my friends so much stuff, but i think some of what i would say in here might offend them or think that i'm too messed up, and i don't want to do that. i don't want any apprehension about writing. truth is covered in security, as kurt cobain said, and its the truth.
i've been wondering if i should post my old journal entries in here.... i'm not sure about that... i'm not sure if i would put everything thats in them on here. i guess i'm still having a little apprehension even though this is anony. i guess i don't even want who won't ever know me to not think i'm a screwed up loser, and don't want to open myself completely, leaving myself naked to the world. this is kind of a dilema. i went through a stage where i was like, we shouldn't keep anything inside, everything should be shared because sharing is beautiful. and i still feel that way, but i'm not sure if some things should be private or not. anyway i'll be thinking on this.
let me try to summarize where i'm at. but first i'm going to check to make sure i'm doing all this stuff right.
11:08 p.m. - 2002-04-12
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