just got back from thanksgiving break. it was really needed. i had a pretty good time and didn't have to do too much homework. Me and two of my friends went through some old yearbooks and reminisced. It made me want to see a lot of them again. Even though I grew apart from a lot of them I think I'll try to get a hold of some of them over Christmas.
The break kind of calmed be down a little bit. I go off the deep end too easily sometimes. On the car ride back I spent almost the whole 3+ hours with the radio off. Just singing to myself, praying,doing deep breathing, and trying to relax. I felt like i'd really been avoiding my alone time with God because i don't want to think about it all cause its too sad. So instead of really thinking about it all, i mainly just prayed and relaxed. And it made me feel better.
I've got so much work to do before school is out for Christmas break but i'm gonna try to not let it dominate these next couple weeks. I need to be focusing on progressing as a person and being right with others and trying to be right with God.
I'm still struggling with apathy but i think i'll be able to get better.
I guess the change since the last entry is that i'm still depressed about things, but i have a little more hope now. I'm going to follow my heart, try hard, pray hard, and hope things get better..... I want to feel love in my heart instead of bitterness.
10:58 p.m. - 2002-12-01
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