that i would give you some poems to get across some of the ways i've been feeling lately
This is probably my saddest one. Its the kind of feeling i have when i for some reason want to believe that its all crap.
"there once was a man
who could not understand
that the pleasures of love
lay all in his head
and that the beauties in life
are no more than a myth
and that the reasons for why
make nothing seem less"
I've been wanting to write a paper called "Pride is the opposite of love" for awhile now. I"ve goten some written. Here's a little bit of a poem with the idea
"Pride is the opposite of love
i've felt it in my heart
and i've reasoned it so
hate, is the only road it takes
and the only life it has
is to live
better than others"
here's one called "Life is" not really what i think of as a poem but i kind of like the feeling it gives
Life is
letting the women you love go to the man of her dreams
hurting every step of the way
caring more each day and watching the potential for pain increase
knowing every day that your days are numbered
refraining from the things you want because you know they are wrong
realizing that death might be a blessing instead of a curse
growing close to what you think is the eternal God and then to doubt
being scared, exhausted, and pain stricken
watching the things that you hold as holy be mocked and spit upon
thinking about things so much that you freak yourself out and your head starts to hurt and you don�t even feel like thinking about it anymore.
Seeing the pain in your own eyes in everyone else�s as well
Growing to love things and then fearing them being taken away
being humble
enjoying friendship
sharing your feelings with others and feeling their love
a fight
wishing you could still cry
not understanding so many things
not knowing what to do
being nervous and not even knowing why
learning that �happiness� is a terrible lie
realizing that sometimes all you can do about something is to be sad
learning to see everything as a gift
always seeing hope
wanting to be good and liking yourself because of that
intense music
happy music
sad music
fun music
depressing music
wishing the structure of our world was a better place only to find that there�s no way thats possible
saving each dying starfish on the beach, one by one
being afraid of everything so that you fear nothing
doing work because you have to in order to survive
knowing that quiting is not an option
learning how to deal with yourself
learning to slow down"
This next song i wrote when i thought that you could only fall in love once, which still might be true, i just decided that i was infatuated and not in love. But here's how the poem goes:
"I fell into her eyes
fifteen years ago
i didn't know it then, but
all i had, i let go
i fell into her eyes many years ago
i saw myself in there,
buried in the snow
i fell into her eyes
only to find
that i'd been waiting there
all of this, very long time
the snow, the snow is falling
down on me
the sun, the sun is waiting
waiting for you, waiting for me
many years have passed
and many gaps have grown
the wind it pushes me
farther from my home
for many years i
would not believe
that once you fall in love
you can never be free
the snow, the snow is falling
down on me
the sun, the sun is waiting
waiting for you, waiting for me"
12:28 a.m. - 2002-04-14
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