A song i wrote a couple of years ago that sums up how i have felt lately:
if i was wiser
i'd find a way
to get over my sorrow
and make the best of today
but i'm 19
going on infinity
and i'm hurting
along the way
i've been trying to figure out what it is that i want to do with the free time that i've had lately. i started thinking about how much i like playing and writing music and found out that what i really like to do is to be honest and express how i really feel. thats what i do with music. i then decided that what i want to do is to have serious talks with people about what makes us sad so that we can mourn together and try to comfort each other. but what does almost everybody do? we put up a front of everything being great and that we are completely happy... maybe other people really are that way.. but i doubt it. it feels good to know what i want to do. even though i probably wouldn't ever do this, i would like to have a sadness party. a party that you come to and its ok to be sad. you don't have to smile at everyone, you can freely express how you feel, as long as it doesn't harm someone else. we could all take turns talking like a support group....(maybe i need to join a support group). i would have some sad honest music playing in the background and we could all feel together. we could comfort each other and truely love each other, because we exposed our true selves. we would no longer be alone.
i guess i've had talks like this with some people. they've been very helpful to me. i would like more of them. like i said before, it feels good to know what i want... i had been wondering.
here's a good song lyric to end this entry with:
"if this is only a test
i hope that i'm passing
cause i'm losing steam
and i still want to trust you
peace be still"
secret of the easy yoke
by: Pedro the Lion
2:06 a.m. - 2003-01-12
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