another week goes by. another winter starts and another set of dead leaves fall to the ground. another group of bugs finish out there life. another tragic event happens to one person and maybe a beautiful one to another. another week closer to death and maybe a couple steps closer to life.
Going to speak in rock�n roll song lyrics for awhile
love well young man
while you still can
once your leaves turn
you won�t love again
in time memories fade
senses numb
one forgets
how it feels
to have loved
completely
(pedro the lion � the longest winter)
that i would be good
even when i am overwhelmed
(alanis morisette � that i would be good)
my whole expanse
i cannot see
i formulate infinity
and store it deep inside of me
(meat puppets � oh my)
this week was a pretty typical week for the most part. one of my best friends that i�m currently hanging out with got a job and will be leaving next week. so that kinda sucks but i�m happy for him for finding a job. i feel kind of pathetic coming back from college and working a job i could have gotten in high school, but i�ve been picking up applications for places like best buy and barnes and nobles. i�m willing to do pretty much anything right now cuz i�m tired of feeling like i�m bumming off my parents. i thought i�d be able to find a good job soon but that doesn�t seem to be the case. so i�m gonna have to get a part time job.
i had a cool dream a couple nights ago. I dreamed I was walking down a road and I knew that either Jesus or God was right next to where i was walking by. i knew that i shouldn�t bother Him because I somehow knew that he was busy (i think He was talking with someone) but i couldn�t help it and ran up to Him and quickly tried to think of something to ask. i came up with the question, �is this all just a test�. then i felt all weird and tingly and everything went bright white and i woke up feeling like i had been pressed against the bed. No joke. it was pretty wild. i�ve felt like growing closer to God is a little more hopeful than it has been lately. maybe that was what the dream was saying.
the word for this week would have to be exhausted. i�ve been too tired and doing other stuff to do a whole lot of thinking, writing, or reading.
I don�t know if i mentioned it in here or not, but i taught the highschool youth on wed. nights this month. that was quite the experience. it felt so weird being the adult in charge of teaching them about Christianity. I felt real out of place considering the extent of my struggles with it. but they kind of pressured me into it, and i thought i could probably help them out some. it was actually a pretty good experience because i found out that, at times if the circumstances are right, i kind of like being the �teacher�. i�m thinking about teaching part time at the community college when next semester starts, if i still don't find a job by then.
2:32 p.m. - 2003-10-26
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