its been awhile. i've been real busy. here's a quick entry from my personal journal, just to give you a flavor of some of my thoughts lately:
been wondering what i�m going to do about myself and think i�ve come to realize: life is full of loose ends. like ben folds five says, �there�s never going to be a moment of truth�. i�m starting to believe that. life is about imperfection because maybe there isn�t such a thing as perfection. its just made up of everyone doing the best they can. but still �theres a sadness i can�t erase, all over my face.� (thirdeyeblind) do i just fight it? or do i work at resolving it? i�ve been doing both. maybe i need to fight it a little harder.
life is so serious. life deserves way more attention and energy than i feel i can possibly give. to be able to treat your aging grandparents with the kind of empathy and respect they deserve. to be able to treat your parents with the love they deserve, and everyone for that matter. religion seems like an abyss of dead ends to me lately. but it seems i should devote an endless amount of time and energy to that. or do i reveal in my imperfections and state of mediocrity. do i embrace some of the selfish desires, and live my life, the way a kid has zeal for their lives. sometimes i don�t feel like i can happily be anything else.
9:50 p.m. - 2004-06-28
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