My how the time goes by. I knew it had been awhile since I wrote last but I didn�t think it had been that long. Wow.
Things are going fairly well for me overall. I just moved into my own place for the first time in 3 years, and so far I like it. I�m working at my old engineering job over the summer but am also taking a class online/over the phone with a composer in LA on how to write music for TV commercials. I have been extremely busy trying to do both work and that class. And work has been extremely busy lately. But I�m happy to be doing what I�m doing. Its nice doing both. It makes me appreciate each of them. The engineering work I�m doing this summer is a lot more fun than last summer even tho it�s a lot more intense / longer hours. Although, I do wish I had more time to take care of myself. Lately I�ve had no time for exercise, yoga, hang out with friends� nothing. The more I do music the more I think I�m going to end up as a teacher. Trying to make it off of composing alone I think would just be too hard. I�m starting to think that having a 8 - 5 job that I can somewhat enjoy is more desirable than writing awesome music for millions of people to hear, if it means working myself to exhaustion and having no time for friends / exercise / hobbies. I�m starting to think its more important to live my life well (thinking about social interactions mainly) than to write great music. Although, ideally, I could do both, and I think that�s where being a teacher comes in. I would get to interact with people and do music at the same time. I�ve got one more year before I graduate and then I�m going to try teaching at a community college (preferred) or highschool. I�d like to teach music (theory/appreciation/composition/technology - whatever I can get) but I�d also be willing to teach math or mechanical engineering. But at the same time I want to try and write music for the entertainment industry, but this will be secondary. And I�ll most likely continue doing engineering work (when school is out). If I like teaching, I'll probably go back to school for a Phd so I can teach at a university. So that�s the plan.
Its weird being this age (just turned 28 recently). Its like you wake up one morning and realize everyone is settling down except you. There is less and less single people to hang out with. I�m blessed to have some pretty cool friends but all but one have gf�s or wives. Strange that I�m not more motivated to get a gf myself. I�ve been real disappointed with people lately. My old roommate showed me how much I can misjudge someone. I also feel somewhat like an outcast. (please excuse the pity party�) I really feel like I belong in the church crowd (as far as what they like to do for fun) but my religious views are now too different for that to work well. And the non-religious crowd tends to be a little too wild for me. A little too into the media sanctioned idea of what it means to be cool. Maybe I�m just being too negative� I�m just tired of putting up with people�s shit. Well this entry is getting a little de-railed�. Where did my positive attitude go?
11:07 p.m. - 2009-07-25
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