recency bias - the tendency to think that current trends will continue.
My recency bias tells me my whole world is going to end. It says that the family crisis over the last 4-5 years crescendoing into my parents divorce, my father's suicide, and other issues I don't want to go into, will ultimately overtake me. It feels pointless to plan / think about something more than 1 yr in the future. I hope and pray this doesn't happen but due to my recency bias this is what my subconscious is bracing for.
My tendency now is to spend my time listening to Arvo Part to cleanse my soul so that when the hammer falls my soul will have already said goodbye and will be at peace.
Am I suicidal? No, I'm not. Am I seriously afraid of the family crisis that I never go into out of respect for other's privacy? YES. Scared as hell.
I wish I could make peace with fear. In some ways it seems like what life is about, facing your fears...
10:08 p.m. - 2012-08-18
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